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I miss this kid.  Don't get me wrong. I love my son.  I love him so fiercely that it startles me sometimes. But I miss this kid.  Before a label was put on him. Before we had the evaluation. Before our lives were changed by that label. Sometimes I want to go back. Sometimes I want to quit. Sometimes I think this is too much. Most days I suck it up. That's what moms are supposed to do right? I can do that. I can suck it up.  I can be the mom that my kids need. That they deserve. That they want. I just need fewer sucky days.  Change is coming my friends. I see the end of the tunnel. We're on our way to happiness.  We're going to be just fine.  So Aspergers? Don't think you've got me beat. Don't think you can take that sweet boy from me. Don't think his calling me a "f*!king bitch"  regularly is going to break me. Don't think I won't kick your ass Aspergers.  You don't know who you're dealing with.

Please, go look and watch . Just DO IT!!

Happy Birthday to my dad. You're card is in the mail. No check though =0) What the hell is the world coming to? My thoughts and prayers go out to the family and friends of those lost and wounded in Tucson.  I can cross the first thing off my 2011 List. We got the townhouse that we wanted. The rent is doable and more importantly, the kids like it a lot. There's a fenced in backyard, 2 car garage (the husband wanted it just for the garage), a huge storage area downstairs. This is going to be good for us.  Crap. I have to pack all the shit we've accumulated over the last five years. Gah! I'm going to go collapse now and commence freaking out. 

It's just after midnight. I'm trying to finish the first disc in the Freaks and Geeks Complete Series set that I got for my  birthday from my kick ass husband. The toddler* wakes up. The video below is what happened for the next half hour. She's still awake, I had to pry her face from the laptop camera. Deep breathing is good for you. Deep breathing......deep breathing...... * my god does that pain me to type toddler . for real.

Ya know, I forgot a couple things off yesterday's list. I think I'll be adding to this list as the year goes on. 12. Improve communication skills. I suck at this. I can't articulate what I want without being super emotional or defensive or confusing. 13. Appreciate my friends. I know this seems like a no brainer but I am not the best at keeping in touch with my friends. I want them to know what they mean to me. I don't have many people, outside of my family, that I trust implicitly. In fact, I can count on one hand how many I have. 14. Get Season 4 of Bones. I got Season 5 and I'm on the last episode now. Partway through S5E2, I realized something was off. Yep, hadn't seen Season 4. :::shakes head::: 15. Go to Vegas. Duh. 16. Learn to bowl left handed. Since the right shoulder is permanently jacked up. 17. Keep a journal, an brutally honest one, on raising an Asperger's child. 18. Not worry about my youngest never catching up with others. She...

Here's what I have planned for this year. Fell free to share with me what you have on your agenda. 1. Find a place for my family and I to call our own. 2. Travel. Not to a bordering state. 3. Read more. Of course, this is on every one's list yes? I would like to expand my reading horizons. Suggestions? 4. Volunteer more at my childrens' schools. 5. Watch more movies with my husband. Literally and figuratively (wink wink) 6. Play outside with my kids. More than once. 7. Get the flash on my beloved Nikon fixed. 8. Kick start photography business. After number 7 is rectified of course. 9. Improve on my blogging. My writing sucks and I want to improve. I want become more articulate. I want to have something my kids can look back on and be proud, happy, mortified and embarrassed to read. 10. Live life with the glass more than half full. Don't be afraid. Don't let people treat me like crap. Don't let people walk all over me. 11. Love my husband ...