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Messy bun. Tons of hair. She loves to snuggle with him and "play" her DS with him. This night, she was all about watching. What? With Great Gramma Fern Hugging her cousin, who wasn't too sure about the whole thing.  Try and get her out of the pond and she lays down.  Who can resist that?? My water baby Looking for some trouble to get into

I have always had dreams that....well....sometimes they are freaky weird, sometimes leave me speechless and most times they leave no memory path for me to recall them. I tend to not remember my dreams. I'm ok with that. Some of the ones I do remember are too painful. Too gut wrenching, they make me physically ill. See last night's note. I've had some trouble sleeping lately, in that I wake up every. single. hour. It's been frustrating. I've been going to bed earlier (like at 10 or 11 - shocking! I know!) This week hasn't been stressful or upsetting so I'm not sure where this fitful sleep is coming from. I could take a percocet and that would help me sleep but I think I'll save what's leftover for when I have my back go out, again. And again. So these dreams have been fast and furious this week. Some have made me wake myself up laughing (I wish I could recall those) and others, like tonight's, have me crying as I remember them. My...

I don't want, nor do I need, anyone's pity. I don't need, nor do I want, anyone's sympathy. I don't need, nor am I wanting, people to judge me. There are very few people in this world who know I what I go through with my son. Sure there are other special needs kids out there, der. There is only one of my son. I have realized that I cannot do this. Don't tell me that I can. Don't tell me that things will get better. Don't tell me that it's just a bad day. You know what?? I've had a bad day since he was diagnosed. He's not getting better. He's getting worse. Do you know that I can't leave him in the room with his 6 yr old sister for fear that he will seriously injure her. I know that siblings fight. I get that. I get that big brothers are going to make their little sister's life miserable. He is awesome when his cousin is here. She has a calming force on him that works wonders. When she comes over, he's all listening and b...

REFUGIO, Texas -- Investigators say a man has died while in the act of raping an elderly South Texas woman. The Refugio County Sheriff's Office identifies the man as 53-year-old Isabel Chavelo Gutierrez. Sheriff's Sgt. Gary Wright says the incident happened June 2 after he rode two miles by bicycle from his home to that of his 77-year-old victim in the tiny coastal community of Tivoli. He says the 5-feet-7-inches tall, 230-to-250 pound man sneaked into the woman's house and raped her at knifepoint. During the attack, he said he wasn't feeling well, rolled over and died. His body was sent to the Nueces County medical examiner in Corpus Christi for autopsy. Gutierrez was a registered sexual offender on parole from a sentence for aggravated sexual assault and indecency with a child. Read more:  http://www.foxnews.com/us/2011/06/14/man-dies-while-raping-elderly-texas-woman/#ixzz1PJxZ723Z ED TO ADD: Ain't that a bitch?!

How the hell am I supposed to leave this alone? How am I supposed to protect it from being punctured with the crazy life I have at home with these kids? Damn you bacon, the sacrifices I make and pain that I endure to devour you. Thank you for not blinding me yesterday morning when you splattered oil right under my eye. You got me really good this morning as payback I see.  Bacon grease: 1  Mama: 0 PS: Please please please ignore my extra chin. Thanks!

I’m posting this to enter a contest on offered by  Brad’s Deals  at  Sweetney ! I want to win the white iPad 2!  I'll be coming out of my blogging coma soon. A lot of stuff is going on in and around my life and I just don't have the dedication right now to properly maintain the blog. I'm also attempting to "redesign" it myself since I have no extra income to pay someone uber smart to do it for me. Anyone want to donate their smarts and talents? Lemme know!

I sign up for some pretty eccentric email lists. Some of them are for fashion news (if you knew me? that would make you laugh your ass off.) Some are for off the wall artists or musicians. One list I'm on sends me a variety of things. It's one of the few daily emails that I look forward to. Today I was sent this . I love photography and was very interested in this when I realized what it was. It combines two of my favorite things to study: photography and criminals. I am so entranced with these photographs. I want to know all I can about the subjects. What their stories are, how they ended up where they were. How did their lives turn out? I really like learning about people. Not necessarily famous folk. Anyone will do really. I think in some ways it's because I want to feel some connection with people. Alive or dead. I think all of us want to see that others are human too. Maybe they make the same mistakes we do and that comforts us. The knowledge that someone else tho...